- - Dead Meat - -

Arghhhh can't believe it...I've got no choice but to overexert myself for this mock exam. I don't want to fail again!!!!! It's getting harder and harder each day. So much things to do but so little time. No! It's not so little time. Lots of time but it just that I brought this upon myself. I keep enjoying myself. And here I am....Panicking at the last minute which is no use....Totally useless!!!!!!

I slept at 2.a.m. It's a very very tiring study. When I wake up this morning, my body ache all over. I still want to sleep some more....but I got stomach ache....I feel very weak all over....I think I'm falling sick soon =(. I hope I can hold out until the very last. God.....what am I suppose to do now? I feel so helpless and hopeless.......

Zero-X ranted @ 9:19 AM ;
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- - What Next???? - -

Today we have maths tutorial make up class. After lunch, I go to the library and study. However, maybe I eat too much and I started to feel very sleepy. Not only that, the library is very cold and I got stomach cramp. I sleep in the library about 30 minutes!!!! I can't believe it!! Haiz, when I wake up...I only study a little bit more and I go for early dinner with Vie and Mar. This is really bad. I haven't finish study the exam material. Not even one subject!!!

After our dinner, Vie buys some groceries. She wants to cook chicken soup for her...boyfriend. Hmmm I wonder....when will I have my chance to cook for my special someone. There is a saying...to get into a man's heart is through his stomach...Hmm maybe that's true...

I hope I can finish my study as soon as possible. Just wondering why I always lack of motivation....

Another thing is...let say...if a girl likes a guy...without telling the guy that she likes him...will the guy ever know the girl's feeling? I think...perhaps....the guy will know...But, if he really knows, what is he going to do next????

Zero-X ranted @ 7:16 PM ;
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- - A Lil' Unwell - -

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me

Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
They're taking me away

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me.........

Zero-X ranted @ 11:32 AM ;
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- - STUDY STUDY - -

Last night I was doing my economics tutorial....Phew....it took me hours and hours to do some of the questions. Hm I consider this as one of my "a week study campaign". I hope all my efforts will pay off. I don't expect high scores for the mock exam this time...hm just a show of improvement will do. Must study study study study study study study study study study!!!

God...bless me =).

Zero-X ranted @ 8:25 AM ;
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- - Lots Of Things Coming Up - -

So many things coming up....I don't think I can handle this. Right now....I'm kind of confuse. Once I completed my diploma, should I continue to study??? Or perhaps, going back for good. Kind of tired being away for so long....I just want to be in my hometown....with my family. Over here, I don't think I have enough support. All I need is moral support from my family back home. I want to be near them...

However, If I don't continue my studies....with just diploma, who wants to hire me??? Arghhh so confused. So many things coming up within such a short period of time. Perharps, I never sit down for a while and think through what I actually want in life. I do have a dream....but I wonder why, the dream seems getting futher and futher from my grasp.

Oh God...please help me!!! Show me the way....

Zero-X ranted @ 9:21 AM ;
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- - Another Exam - -

Hmm another exam coming up....It will be tiring. I don't know where to start. As always, lack of motivation =(.

Zero-X ranted @ 9:30 PM ;
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- - My Happy Valentine - -

I thought that I will not get any rose today....but I was wrong... My friends : Vie, Mar, Vena, Ris and Vency are very sweet. They get me a bouquet of rose. I'm surprised and really touched. Vie gives it to me at Ajisen and...I just can't help but to cry. I'm really really touched. They are really sweet. I can't describe it in words how I feel. The feeling is...........

Everywhere I go, I can see couples are holding hands. Every direction I see, people are holding bouquet of flowers. So...romantic. There is also traffic jam!!! Even though I don't receive my rose from a special someone...I'm still happy. It shows that guy is not everything. Friends are more important... And I'm glad I've such a wonderful friends.

God...thank you for blessing me with such a wonderful friends. I'm really grateful for every moment I spend with them. I guess, this is another sweet memory that I share with them. And perharps, many more sweet memories awaited me =).

Happy Valentine's day.......

Zero-X ranted @ 8:55 PM ;
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- - First Time On Air - -

Wowww....couldn't believe this...at last I manage to go on air. Hmm I'm known as Dj VL3e. I get soo nervous when I go on air for the first time. I'm shaking all over. I didn't know what to say at first. And errrrmmm I really really nervous. But slowly, I manage to get over my nervousness...Hmm I guess I should prepare my line for my next on air. Make sure I know what to say or what to do. But anyway, it's a pleasant experience =). I will make sure, I won't be so nervous the next time I on air.

Zero-X ranted @ 8:03 PM ;
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- - Love Hurts... - -

What is love??? Until today, I'm still asking myself...What is Love???? LOVE LOVE LOVE...is it true that love can make the world go round? Is it true love can make time stops and just the two of human beings together in this big world? I can never stop asking till I know what it is...Or perharps I shouldn't ask too much...

Just wondering...what is love? If love hurts soo much...why people still want to cling on it, put all their hopes in it? Why...until today, some people still overwhelmed with sadness? If love bring so much tears....why people still ask for love?

Another thing...what if...I love someone..but that other person doesn't love me in returns. Should I stay...? Should I be there by his side? Still sharing his joy and sadness....just like a best friend should be? Or perharps one day, my love will moved him and in returns...he will love me back??

Love Love Love...arghhhhh can't think about it!!!! How I long for a love that never ends...cos love doesn't have an end...Is it true???

Still wishing...hoping...praying...that someday...somewhere...I will find my true love. But is true love really exist? I just can't stop wondering and asking.....

Zero-X ranted @ 11:34 AM ;
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- - Merindumu.. - -

Tak ku rasakan lagi
Hangatnya rasa rindu
Tak kurasakan lagi
Indahnya hidup ini
Telah habis rasa Cinta di hati
Yang menyelimuti diri

Takkan lagi belai lembut tubuhmu
Tak kan lagi sentuhan bibir manismu
Tak kan lagi satu didalam dirimu
Ku merindumu...

Oh kasihku dengarlah seruanku
Oh pintaku jangan lupakan diriku
Jadikanku kisah manis dalam hidupmu
Kau kekasihku...

Zero-X ranted @ 11:23 AM ;
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- - Johor - -

Yup....my first time to Johor. I thought Johor would be different from Singapore, but I'm wrong. I admit Singapore is cleaner than Johor. Hmm...It's a tiring journey from Singapore to Johor. Lot's of cheap stuffs there. However, I don't buy lots of stuffs there. The time is really limited...not much time to actually look around the city square plaza.

Zero-X ranted @ 9:40 PM ;
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- - Light Hearted - -

For about one week I did not update my blog...but here I am again =). Hmm what should I say for today??? Somehow, I feel happier today after chatting with a friend. Chat about lots of things...Right now, when I'm writing this blog, I'm still overcome by joy...Seems like my heart is very light...not like the previous days. It's a good sign...I know it for sure =).

Just wondering....always look forward to chat with this friend of mine. And somehow, I feel this friend always brighten my day. Sometimes, the chat makes my heart thumping...in chinese they call it "xin tiao zai jia su" [hope I write it correctly =)]. And maybe...I even blush without realising it because I feel my face suddenly "hot". Hmmmm....

Anyway, I'm overjoyed =D!!!!

Zero-X ranted @ 5:15 PM ;
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If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am???
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms??

Zero-X ranted @ 5:07 PM ;
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- - Long Night.... - -

It doesn't really matter now you're gone
You never were around that much to speak of
Didn't think that I could live without you, baby
It couldn't be that hard to live alone

But I'm all, all alone again
Thinking you will never say
That you'll be home again

And it's gonna be a long night
And it's gonna be cold without your arms
And it's gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights
It's gonna be a long night
And I know I'm gonna lose this fight

Once upon a time we fell in love
And I thought that I would be the only one

But now I'm on, I'm on my own again
Thinking you will never show
You won't be home again

Now I'm all on my own again
Thinking you will never show
You won't be home
I'm lost in your arms
Baby, lost in your arms.........

Zero-X ranted @ 10:35 PM ;
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